*blowing off the dust on this site*
It's been a month that I've stopped blogging.
This blog is revived from the dead, but the owner still feels a bit dead due to hectic life.
It is not that my life is less hectic now - I still have a heavy load in front of me to go through -
I'm here simply to express myself. Me and my emotions. Emotions, can be good to boost one's self-esteem as well as a disaster which will degrade self-esteem and perspective towards life.
Friends. Can you define the word friends? Most people are proud of having many friends, in other words a large social network. I was one of those people before, but now, I look at things differently. For me QUALITY is better than QUANTITY.
As a believer of Christ, God always taught us to forgive one another and love each other. Jesus said, "A new commandment I give you : Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another." John 13: 34.
But as imperfect human beings, we have our limits. We always try our best to obey God's word but most of the time we fail. Imagine yourself being hurt in so many ways by people you call 'friends' each day. How can you possibly forgive somebody so many times and the person keeps doing it over and over again?
Would you consider somebody your friend when they come to you when they are not in good terms with their other peers and then just leave you after making up with them. I am one of the few foolish people to fall into this trap. When she was sad and helpless, I remember being there for her. When she was having problems, I remember helping her solve them. When she was in tears, I remember being there just to console her. I seriously do not understand why she treated me this way after what I have done for her - its not that I want credits for being a nice person. I just don't understand these kind oof people. I feel like I'm a puppet. Being taken advantage off. And when this parasite I called 'friend' sucked out all the advantages, the parasite just leave me alone again until she has another problem. Don't you not think it is so idiotic of me to treat people like this with much love as a friend?
I wish I hadn't had known you before this. Then, maybe now I would be happy living my life. I'm still proud that I have great friends whom I can trust and will always be there for me whenever I need them and I promise to be there whenever they need me too. As for suckers (parasites), I command you to stay away from me. Stay far far away!
I do not know how to phrase my sentences properly. I'm not angry, not furious but just dissapointed and upset I'm treated or rather being used this way.
~Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks~
Kim
